I've been feeling really crap, can't remember when I wasn't feeling this way. So I spend a lot of time reading blogs and finding people that I can relate to. I found a lot of websites that have peoples stories and also things to help you. This is going to sound so dumb, but I did a few quizzes. The result of every single quiz tells me that I'm depressed. I don't know why. So a lot of things aren't going well for me. But I don't have major problems, like abuse or anything. No one would believe me, they don't understand anything. They think problems are stupid. They don't understand why anyone would want to starve them selves, cut them selves, drink or do drugs. I never use to, but I certainly do now. The people I know are very shallow and judging. That is why I will never tell them. That is why I don't want to be here anymore.
I feel really stupid. I mean, online quizzes! I don't think there is even any one to help round here. I'd have to go to the doctor. then every one would know that I didn't feel normal. I don't even go to the doctor if I get sick or hurt. People would find out, they'd see the red on my skin.
Online quizzes. they're stupid right? I'm stupid. What am I going to say? "mum, take me to the doctor. the computer thinks I'm depressed"? I think not.
I noticed you were following me so I decided to read your blog too. And online quizzes aren't stupid at all.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's all right to not want to go to the doctor, but it does help. Try to engulf yourself in stuff that you love. Its the one thing that works for me and keeps me going.
But I know exactly what you mean about feeling like someone from tv. And if you ever want to talk just get at me. I love to make new friends.