Faith oh faith, is a way to believe lies we need

YAY FOR THE WEEKEND!!!!!!

What ever Foundation Day is, I love it! 

I think it might be when West Australia was founded. I remember something like that in primary school. When we used to have pioneer day and dress up in old 19th century clothes and play marbles. We also thought it could have been one of the queens many birthdays. Either one, it means we have monday away from school.

I am glad of that. Monday is a torturous day. 

It wasn't as bad this week because we missed out on a double health for a 'Healthy relationships' workshop. I don't think anyone actually took in what the lady was saying about not insulting people and communicating. They all came out of the gym swearing and calling each other sluts. And some crazy person called me a skanky bitch with weird socks hahahaha.

And, speaking of crazy people... My friend had to get a restraining order on someone. 

The other day in health, this girly was sitting at our table, and everything we said she'd just insult us. She was like "are you guys, like, friends? do you sit together at lunch?" and we said "yeah. that's quite a normal thing to do. why?" and she just cracked up laughing and turned to her friend and started talking about how silly and girly we were. Then she started going on about all the guys she'd slept with and the drugs she'd taken. And she would not stop insulting us about nonsense things. So my friend said all big stand-up-to-the-bully-like "I'm sick of you insulting my friends. you don't even make sense! We are friends, we do not do drugs or sleep around. You are being stupid!" and the girl got soooooo mad and went off her head and said to my friend "what the fuck did you just call me!!??" and my friend was looking hell worried so then my other friend just randomly goes "yeah she called you stupid and a slut." hahahahahahaha but, yeah, maybe not a good idea. So little miss gangsta threatened all of us and said that when the lesson finished we were to go outside and call her a slut to her face. which to me makes no sense, she didn't like it the first time, why did she want us all to tell her again? but luckily the teacher wanted to talk to her about something and kept her in. So we escaped. But we heard at lunch that she was "looking for us" lol so we kind of laid low for a while. But today we went to student services and Mr student services said that she was a bitch and deserved to be called a slut hahaha and if she went with in ten meters of us she'd have time-out for, like, ever! but her friends kept calling us sluts and giving us the finger hahahahahahahahahahaha 

But, my friends are all mucked up. 

Ready to give up on everyone

If it means they have to give up any little insignificant thing of theirs

It's lent now, maybe that's why they're giving up

I think you're supposed to give up something more like chocolate not love

or maybe they never did love

no, I don't think they did

I have covered my arms in the word love. It makes me smile.

And maybe if you feel in a generous mood, you could head over to www.worldsgreatestshave.com and sponsor my team. It is called Red Rum lol I am the team captain! I have just received all the fundraising stuff. I now have balloons, badges, posters and a huge banner thing :D 50c maybe? lol 

I feel I have written enough, goodnight! 

I know your best was still your worst

I seem to be forgotten, by everyone. 

But, they remember me sometimes, only to blame me and forget me, again.

Everyone has forgotten each other. 

They're too busy trying to win. 

I'm not sure why everything is a competition, to know more, to have more, to talk more. There's competitions about whose family is bigger, funner, louder. Whose problem is the biggest, whose lunch is the worst. 

They've forgotten everything. 

They've forgotten that words can hurt people. 

They have no idea that what they are saying is leaving people lonely.

You can't even talk to them anymore.

If someone was to say "I'm killing myself this afternoon" they would spend the next 30 minutes talking about their own (not at all) horrible life.

They say nothing of any importance and listen to no one. 

They insult everyone else, but will not allow themselves to feel that same pain. 

She talks endlessly about how she is so "excellent at listening"  "great at understanding people" and "good at helping" not realizing the tears running down her friends face. 

They are not hers; they are not important.

I'm tired.

this week has been crap. 

life is crap.

fuck it. 

whats the point?

everyone's given up

Black and Red

I have started this sentence so many times.

I don't know what to write. 

What can I say?

people light fires.

houses burn.

people die.

Australia is used to bush fires. They come every year and leave behind a mess of ashes. But this, this was mass murder. It's just the same as someone running around shooting people with a gun. 181 people were burned alive. No one wanted to leave their house and come back to a pile of ashes. As people tried to escape the fires, they were faced with car crashes, fallen trees and many became surrounded by the fires. 

The fires started on Saturday and on Monday there were still 50 of them burning. 

More than 700 houses were burnt down. All the things people thought were valuable have turned into ashes. What value are they now? But you hear peoples stories and they don't talk about how much they miss their china vase or plasma screen. They talk about how much they miss the people they love, the people that died. They talk about how happy they are to be alive and how much they appreciate everyones help. Because everything else doesn't matter, this is too big to worry about those small things. 

The red cross bush fire appeal has raised $28 million to support the people effected by the fires. The whole country is helping. I've just spent the afternoon with a few other people painting shipping containers to send supplies to Victoria and the containers will be used as shelter for just a few of the 1000s of people that have become homeless. We live on the other side of Australia and the whole town has come together to give money and supplies to the people of Victoria. Even people on the other side of the world are ready to help. How amazing is that?

You should definitely read the blog about it on TWLOHAs page. I read it over and over again. All the people offering support and showing they care. 

This is a huge disaster.

But there's huge amounts of support.

Taylor Swift is not a nice person.

salut! hmm I havent done french for sooooo long but I still remember stuff like something about an animal in a maison. maybe I don't remember that then but it's like 'a to an animale a la maison', but obviously spelt properly. It in english is 'do you have any pets? '

I have stuff to blabber on about, but no words or sentances to create. Actually, now I cant remember what I was gonna say. sacrebler, or how ever you say it.

I have survived the first week of school :) only 39 more to go. But not really 39 coz I'm going to be away sometimes. In about 4 weeks I'm going to Perth for my cousins wedding. A few weeks after that I'm going to Sydney and then to a place called tweedheads in new south whales to stay with my grandparents on dads side. Then there's like 2 weeks after that til the end of term. Then we are going to Thailand for the holidays :D well mum says its definite, but I'm not sure, with the economic crisis and everything. Then I'm not sure about the rest of the year.

But in the October holidays I'm hopefully going to Canberra with my Society and Environment class :D Coz I'm in the top class. And the head of S&E organized a trip for canberra that people from the two top classes can go on if they want :D coz the government will pay for half of it if you go to the government house and all that 'educational' stuff. So I think me and my friend are both going to go if we can get a job and save enough money. And, and, and... I'll get to see my very awesome aunty who lives in Canberra :D suddenly school is slightly less horrible and torturing, slightly.

And somewhere inbetween all that I'm going on photography camp. which is a week in Perth and not at school. Using hell good cameras to take hell good photos in a place that isn't here :D with two of my friends. what more could you ask for??

And I have to sort everything out for the worlds greatest shave because my group are going to do the colouring hair part of it. and raise money for leukaemia foundation. And this year at school we have to do 20 hours of community service, so that will count for that. And so does the 40 hour famine. And I'm doing the relay for life, which is this 24 hour thing where you have teams and you take turns to run laps for 24 hours and thers like sooooooo much entertainment and stuff! and you raise money for cancer stuff. It's gonna be heaps cool!

I just found out all the bands that are going to be at soundwave this year. There's a whole heap of death metal ones that I don't like too much but there's also Alkaline trio, the red jumpsuit apparatus, forever the sickest kids, everytime I die, funeral for a friend, less than jake, new found glory, from first to last, hello goodbye, jacks mannequin, say anything, saves the day, minus the bear, I am the avalanche, bayside, emery, the audition, inner party system and velencia!!!!! and I really want to go, but it's on March 2 and we're going March 6, and I'm not allowed that much off school.And tickets are $130 :( But I sooooooo want to see Jacks Mannequin, forever the sickest kids and hello goodbye!!!!! maybe if i miraculously find a job before then and convince mum to let me go. Probably not.

ummm... boo! ???

OHHH I'm so bored. You know the horrible bored exhausted feeling that comes and you don't know why it came or how to get rid of it. Because honestly, today shouldn't have made me feel that bad. I was alone in science, but I'm used to that. But being alone in science is worse than being alone in other subjects. Because we have to sit in groups and do everything in groups so I have to go with not nice people and pretend like I dont care. Maths wasn't so bad because I had Michelle. But the teacher really should go teach at a primary school. She called us kids 10 billion times and kept saying things like "I looked at your little faces and it didn't look like you understood" and she kept talking in third person like "mrs hoeys rules say this" and "mrs hoey wants you to do this".
Ummm, childcare, was okay. I had mel and rhianna. But the rest of the class is just those horrible Mean Girl kinda people. They're only doing it because they want the fake baby. But I kind of expected that because its one of those classes that the annoying people choose because they think they wont have to do work. Thats the same for photography and art. I havent had photography, art or fashion yet. I really want to do fashion. It's like making your own clothes and redesigning old clothes to make them new again.
Society and Environment is booooring lol were doing the whole economic crisis. The teacher just drew a big squiggly line with the words boom and bust written everywhere and was like "this is the economy" and we are forced to sit down the front so he keeps hearing our conversations and giving us random looks because we talk a lot about weird random things.
And in English we are readin Frankenstein. It is quite confusing so you have to read some bits like 3 times to understand it. But so far its good.
I have a million homeworks to do. But I had to look after my silly cousin until 5:30. As soon as she got on the bus she was like "hi. gran said I could go to your house. I'm going to make another sims family" Its annoying. she is obsessed with sims and never ever stops talking about it.
Then when she left I had to make dinner. then eat it, then clean it up. Then listen to mums many lectures.
I suppose if I was smart I'd be doing it now, but I'm not. And its just too horrible to think about.

Oh and we were going to all wear stripy socks or colourful tights today to annoy the principal. because yesterday she told katelin she wasnt supposed to wear long rainbow socks. And we asked every teacher we could find and they all said there was no rules about it. But anyways, there was only me and mel wearing awesome leg wear because the others had got bored of the idea or something. We got many funny looks and comments. Made us laugh. specially when the principal saw us :D

OK, I'm going to pretend to be like a smart person and do boring linear equations that I have done 28million times over the past 2 years, stuff about boring money, worksheets about microbes and diseases and write chapter summarys for frankenstein. Fun.

oh and I need some more books I can read for english. Like interesting ones that could possibly disguise me as smart. I want to read the orphaned everythings, I think thats what its called. By, ummm, mental blank... that awesome dude thats in that awesome band that I'm ashamed to say, I cant remember. Oh and I'm going to order a copy of trading shadows for sunshine by eric victorino when its says its in stock on amazon.
So yeah I need more books. Any ideas???

Never be normal.
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fIrst day back at school. i really don't want to go back. it feels like i've never even been on HolidAys. that feeling of haVing all your ENergy Taken forever. that is how I feel now. we aren't allowed to listen to music at all during sChool. now we are not even allowed to wear long stripy socks. bUt That wont stop us FrOm weaRing coloured stockings And leg warMers. people are hOrrible. teachers caN be even more horrible Than students. lonelyness is tHe worst. big important life changing decisions are horrible. the global economic crisis is horriBle. and even worse to learn about. science is horrible and absolUTely no Interest of mine. reaDing frankensteIn is gooD. having a good english Teacher is even better. having awesOme exclamation mark and question mark earrings is pretty gooD. choc milk is wonderful! thAt is all i've had to eat/drink todaY except for rabbit food salad (carrot and lettuce).

Be Awesome
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