11:23

Where have you been? Why did you go? I wish you were still here. I
want to talk to you about random weird stuff. I could really do with
your help. Everythings gettings harder.
I don't seem to know who I am. Or what I want. Nothing makes me happy
anymore. Not sure what to do.
I wish you could come back.
I think I'm going properly crazy.
Is it normal to have many many voices arguing and shouting in your head?
I want to be able to sleep.

What's the point.

Your Baby Looks Like A Vampire and. You. Are. A. Fool.

I have no idea what I want to say.

I kind of just want to say something. Somehow. 

But, I have nothing good to say.

I could ramble on about my day, I suppose. 

But, thats not saying anything good. 

I don't think.

I could tell you about how excited I am that there is only seven days left of school.

But, what's the point? 

So what do people say when they say things? Good. Things. 

That's all been said before. 

I want to draw something. 

I can't.

I wish I could.

I really. Wish I could. 

Silence. 

I want to run in the rain.

But, it's stopped now. 

Shit.

What the hell am I on about? 

Maybe. Quite. Possibly.

I have somehow been drugged. 

Somehow.

Or maybe. 

I. Need. Sleep. 

we are the voices inside your head

I haven't done one of these for agggeeesssss. Because I am a lump of boredom. hmmm ummm we got a kitten not last weekend but the weekend before, she is called Wednesday (after the addams family coz she likes dark places) and she climbs up the brick walls to the roof. and ummmm I started my dress for the apex australia teen fashion awards. and maneged to do okay on most of my tests and I think i did ok on my critique but we don't have them back yet. and I really need to make some money because i am massively in debt. yer, like I said I am a lump of boredom

The real world would have to be the most boring thing known to man.

I just realized all the mistakes in that last post. Sorry, it's extremely hard writing with the ipod touch keyboard. 

hmmm, anyway. Got back in Aus Sunday then drove back Monday, been back at school for two days. It's not at all an enjoyable thought. In-fact it's thoughts like that that make that clear liquidy stuff come out the corner of your eye and run down your cheek, put a salty taste on your lips and slip off your chin, all before you can stop it. 

Thailand was amazing! We got stuck at a shopping centre, braved protestors with swords and guns, bribed the army, shopped madly at MBK the seven story shopping centre, had lots of starbucks, bought way too much stuff to fit in our cases, drove on a ferry, drove off a ferry, struggled to drive up steep steep curly wurly hills, swam lots, rode on elephants, went to amazing restaurants on the beach, bought jewelry on the beach, had the best food ever and soooo much more. 

Australia is shit. 

There are sheep on my bed. For real.

みかん
Obviously the sheep aren't real, and it doesn't take long to count
them. There is 21.
Ahaha I'm going to Thailand tommorow!!!!!!!! I had to get a new bigger
suitcase but there was only black ones so I've been painting it all
week. It's covered in drunk animals and rainbows and clouds and twloha
and in the middle it says Megan is mean, you know the matches song
that I'm not allowed to download coz it's in their song vault which
annoying man that gave me half his genes won't let me have D:
But anyway, in Thailand there's this thing happening whee the taxis
are blocking the roads so even if the road to get from the airport to
hotel Is okay there won't be any taxis cos they'll be busy blocking
roads and the military could get involved and if they do it will proly
go violent. So if that happens we'll have to go to korat and go to
slightly less awesome shops LOL
And my awesome cool aunty (the one who is actually from Thailand) gave
all of us kids 500 baht!!!!!!!!!! Sooo awesome!
Anywho, have an awesome next 2 weeks.
Sent from my iPod

I got a medal today. Our team ran the most laps. :D It's weird. 

I had the plastic baby this weekend. I was so happy when it died at four o clock. All it does is make noises at me and be embarrassing. It was Rhiannas birthday on Friday. We all love her. She is still convinced everyone hates her. It makes me sad. We went to the park at 1.30 am looking for drunk people to dance with. I am exhausted because the relay for life kept me awake til 2 am last night. I can't be bothered saying what the relay for life is. If you care you can google it. I'm going to Thailand on Sunday. I didn't let myself get excited coz I never thought it would happen. Or something would go wrong. But I'm thinking it might turn out well. I'm excited now. My friend hates me because she asked me if I cut and I cracked up laughing. I eventually lied. She kept asking me questions and telling me to be serious. She disgusts me anyway. My parents love her. I hardly even like her. She actually disgusts me so much that I can't sit next to her or look at her. I feel bad now. I need sleep. It's easter soon. I'll be up up up in the clouds. yay. yay. yay. I'm still happy from Rhiannas party and relay for life. I ran 8km in my 45 minute thing. I had two 45 minute things. I want choc milk. 

I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice-cream

I can't be bothered writing; it's about 35°c  and I'm so uncomfortably hot! 

Had to go back to school today :( I would much rather go back and do work experience again. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, I just did filing and making posters and some stocktake. 

My science teacher was very grumpy at me today, because last week he told me to get some work from him before I left, but I didn't get it because I was trying to sort stuff out with the whole threats and stuff and my friend was hell upset. And today I went and asked for the assignment sheet and he said "You didn't come to see me last Wednesday! I got sheets especially for you!" so I said sorry and explained why I didn't come and asked if there was anymore worksheets I had to do because I was going away for another week and a half and he said very angrily "That's a long time to be away. Is it absolutely necessary?! Why are you going? Is it something I can know about or personal issues?" !!!!! It's not like I'm going to say "Oh sorry Sir! I'll just cancel my plane ticket and stay here for you. " And I wonder what he was thinking about when he asked if it was something he could know about or if it was personal, lol.  

And my friend is being horribly annoying. We coloured our hair for the worlds greatest shave on Saturday and I had told everyone that I'd organize it for on Saturday and email them everything. So I emailed her fifty times as well as texting her and she didn't reply. So today at school I asked her why she didn't reply and she said she couldn't be bothered checking her emails and didn't want to come anyway! So now she isn't going to colour her hair because it's "stupid" and she hasn't even tried to get any sponsors. And all day she just kept saying stupid things. Normally she's not all that understanding or nice, but today she was even worse. Her normal line is "no one has a reason to be depressed; they should just get over them selves!" but today my friend was having a really bad day and she just kept telling her to shut up and stop being so self centered when she wasn't even talking. And at lunch her and Reyne were obsessing over Twilight and then Paramore. It was horrible! It made me sad and I was talking to my friend about how awesome Paramore are but now they've gone hell mainstream and silly girls are like "OMG have you heard this new band called Paramore?" and She came over and was like "Stop being ridiculous, just because we know every Paramore song and you don't" hahahahahahahahaha she thinks they have 3 songs!!!!!! And so me and my friend kept talking and she was talking about all serious stuff and then she came over again and was like "You two are drama queens, just get over it. You don't even know what you're talking about!" So I told her to fuck off and she huffed off lol. And I have vowed to hate her for the next 3 weeks because she is always being horrible and thinks we depend on her. Her and her stupid black and white world. 

Anyway, I can't be bothered being all cut up and annoyed about it now, I'm too excited. I get to spend 1 and a half weeks with my grandparents that I haven't seen for 2 years! yayayayayayayayayayayayayayayaayayayayayayayayyayayayayayay