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I want to write, I have that feeling, I don't know. But I type words, then I realize, that's not what I want to write. I really do not know. Things, I think, aren't so bad. But why do I feel like everything is getting worse. My best friend since year 2, who I haven't spoken to for at least 6 months, texted me on tuesday. She apologized to me for not talking to me as much. OK, she wasn't ignoring me, just not talking to me. We both had different friends, and at the time different ideas. I had emailed her a few times, she replied with "I can't be bothered to read it, so thanks for sending it. Catch up with you soon" So I gave up then. But then she texted me. I can't describe how happy I was. I'd missed her so much. But she's not coming to my school this year. She's going to bored at a school 6 hours away. And I was so excited just to hear from her, But my friends now don't like her. I don't know why. So I was trying to tell them and they all had disgusted looks on their faces, like why do you want to be friends with her still? And I do really want to be friends with her. We use to have sleepovers like every second weekend. And we'd stay up all night, just talking. Sometimes about important stuff but mostly about TV shows and guys and all that stuff. But with my other friends, they don't talk, the prove points or have better stories than everyone else. It's just always a competition, to be better, smarter, just always trying to win. Even though my old friend ditched me for a while because she was trying to be cool or something, I don't know, she's still my best friend. We've done pretty much everything together. We use to get told off in year 2 because we'd always be together. I remember once the teacher got angry at us coz we were holding hands too much. No we are not lovers. Best friends.

okay sorry for babbling on.

There's only 2 weeks left until I have to do year 10. I really am actually quite scared.