happy monday eve

hopefully tomorrow will be good. I'm going to woody island for a reward day thing. I'm not sure why I was picked for a reward day, but I'm happy. I'm not feeling as bad today so hopefully I'll be good tomorrow. But we have to be at the jetty by 7 am! And coz I haven't been to school for the last 2 weeks I don't know much about it. I'll probably just go and sleep on my special sunbathing rock. It's this rock that we found when we were camping there last year. It's perfect, it's completely flat and in the sun. And my cousin is working over there so I'll go talk to her and get some ice cream and stuff :) and my friend said that she'll come sit with me for a bit if I'm not up to swimming and hiking :)

I had to go christmas shopping with my 8yr old cousin yesterday. I felt so sick and I could hardly stand up let alone follow her around town for hours. I was trying to find presents for people but all I got was some mints for my friend and a bag for my sister. And I've got to make presents for my friends but I don't know what to make :(  I know what I'm giving my very best friend who deserves a billion things, I made her a CD of all songs that she loves and a book that I did. It's funny, it's a kids book coz she loves them and it's all about how awesome she is :) Christmas is boring me already. It's going to be soooo boring christmas day. but I'm excited coz mum's gonna get me a Lets Talk Tactics shirt!! it wont be here until after new years though coz it's coming from england. but normally my aunty and my gran give the kids presents, but this year we get money that we're not allowed to spend. coz mum want's to go to Thailand next year for vesak. But we don't even have enough money to survive here, so we cant do anything or buy anything. it sux. And there's nothing to do on christmas because every one is boring and watches cricket and sleeps and eats. And I've had to save forever because my family are shallow and will hate me if I don't buy them big presents. But they never buy me much. Mum asks me what i want and then is like "you don't want that, you want this" shes always trying to prove me wrong. Like when the doctor asked me questions about if i feel depressed and what ever mum was like "no she's a happy girl, she just doesn't eat good" 

I have to take iron tablets coz I don't have enough iron and I have to eat all these yuck foods that have iron, because I don't eat meat except when mum forces me sometimes. So I have to have weet bix and spinach and eggs. But mum will kill me if I don't. 

And I'm not allowed to leave here in the holidays. I'm not even allowed to go to perth when mum goes. Mum wont let me do anything for new years either. I'm never allowed to do anything with my friends.