ummm... holidays?

I'm bored and this is going to sound fucking mad, but I didn't want school to end today. It was good today and I would have stayed in today forever if I could. You know that excitement, when you know that something great is happening, like no more school for seven weeks. That feeling beats anything else. And for once everyone was happy and it was easy. These holidays will never be as fun as the past years. My friend is going to Perth for most of the time and I'm not allowed out of here. 

I'm really trying to convince mum to buy me a good camera for christmas. but they're like $300 so I'm gonna get all the money I have in the bank as well as the money I got for my birthday and all the money I get for christmas and put it towards the camera and hopefully I can get it, probably not though. 

I don't want next year to happen,  year ten is all about choosing TEE subjects and career choice and boring stuff that confuses me. I don't want to do TEE but I have to. It's so unfair. My sister dropped out in year 10 and went to tafe, but I have to stay and do TEE and go to uni. I've never wanted to go to uni, but my sister did, it's messed up. I have no idea what job I want, I don't care about jobs and all the things that lots of people are obsessed with, like marriage and kids and that. My friends have everything planned, they're all perfect and know everything. They treat me like I have absolutely no future, one of them even told me I have no future coz I don't want to do all what they are going to do. They said that I could never change the world, that I couldn't help any one. They have no Idea.